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geez, chase after that fucker and you gots your shins kicked to pieces
and
you still don't even get a decent kick of the ball? stand still,
however,
and the ball comes to you all by itself every now and again for you to
play with?? how very strange!
this is not doing. very good example for life.
stand your ground, life comes to those who don't push too hard.
### - once ya realise that life/nature talks/communicates to us in this fashion, of it giving us pointers and directions in the form of little
'plays' that are enacted-out right in front of our eyes, many times (but
not always) even actively involving us 'in' those plays in some one role
or another at the time that isn't even realised until afterwards; ya tend
to start paying more attention thereafter to them... ya start to
listen-out more for them instead of blindly charging-around trying to
create imaginary opportunities of our own to feel more proud of?
because there's no better teacher than Nature! Nature is our friend, it
doesn't lie! and which is our own nature too if we could but be bothered
to listen to it? most don't of course, they have another agenda entirely,
one that increasingly flies in the face of nature often at the express
expense of it and ourselves to-boot! humanity has thus become estranged to Nature! to the point we've even invented our our intellectual versions of
it to relate to instead! (gods & whatever!)
there was a part-2 to this play that came a number of years later; was at
a boarding school aged around 14 or 15, and being only a few boys there of around 43 or 44 total, it was thus often quite difficult to get-out of
certain activities, football (duh) included...
having no interest in football whatsoever (heh) and not being any good at
it anyway, i was thus never picked for teams or much consulted about it by
my fellow boarders, something which suited me fine btw! it just wasn't
always possible to get out of it in some form or another...
one of the masters there, an ageing hippy type with long blond flowing
hair, someone with a definite bent for the unusual/alternate and that was
a bit of a joke there, had us getting ready one day to play bloody
football? i perforce made my excuses not to play but this dude was having
none of it; c'mon, he said, you've gotta join in sometimes, so how about playing in goal then? it was an intriguing idea but didn't much fancy that either; i'd be hopeless in goal anyway and no doubt let them all in much
to everyone's ire (haha), nah, didn't want it...
hmm, he thought about it for a moment, only to come back with: i know! you
can be the referee!
what?? that's your job! i don't even know enough about the damn game to
play, let alone referee???
nonsense! he said laughing, you can learn it by doing it! and really
wasn't given any other choice! damn!
i'd seen enough matches to know how a ref was supposed to behave and what
he was 'supposed' to do etc, but the finer details of all those rules
still eluded me, so i was bound to make mistakes which everyone would then
jump on because they all knew the rules backwards? damn!
next thing anyway am mediating between 2 obviously insane gangs all trying there best to kick-fuck outta the other team haha, the 'excuse' that it
was all being done in the name of 'football' seemed quite self-evident to
me - this was a teamed-fight performed in slow-mo only! - and now here's
me caught between 2 warring factions having to make quick decisions as to
what constitutes a foul or a penalty or not, what a headache geez!
but something very strange happened to me being under such pressured circumstances; a new pov arose that had never seen/noticed before?
whenever there was, for example, a foul (of which there were many lol)
BOTH sides claimed it accordingly but for their own set of reasons?? yes
he did! no he didn't! it didn't matter what side had fouled they always
claimed the same thing in their turn: one accused the other defended the
point! it happening so many times and virtually for every decision i was
then forced to make/judiciate-over in quick succession, i suddenly found
myself in a very strange place + central-role indeed?
that, from my own pov, i had basically always been on either one side or
the other in some form until then in more or less everything i'd done: i
liked this, i didn't like that! about everything! but never before
standing right in the middle of them and they being both equal?? how
strange!
it was such a profound experience & mood that came over me that i later discussed it with that hippy-teacher dude, who was surprisingly delighted
+ even went to the point of making a remark in my personal reports to my parents about me having maybe learned something quite profound from the experience!
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plus have basically 'remained' in the middle ever since! ;)
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